Appointment Post

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Appointment Post for Replica Riku.

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[ ... welp. Mystery gone!

When Ion shifts forward, Kohan hesitates for half a second, but soon he tries to just focus on the kiss. He could totally pretend that was... something... else... or something...

Hey he's trying alright. ]

[distressedude]

[He can try all he like, but he just can't expect to go through life ignoring the fact that he's dating a dude and dudes react in certain ways to certain things.]

[Though after awhile, Ion's going to be the one to pull back, but not exactly for the same reason Kohan mentioned before.]

Do you think we should... move somewhere a little more private?

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[ The way that Kohan's face flushes might give Ion a pretty good indication that no, Kohan hadn't understood what he really meant earlier.

He drops his gaze off to the floor and steadies himself. ]

Ion, I'm... [ you can do it, Kohan. Ion won't hate you for being honest with him. ] you do... know what you're asking, right?

[ baby steps ]

[distressedude]

[At least asking that had given him a pretty good idea of Ion's intentions. Though seeing that blush only makes the blush on his own face more prominent.]

...yes, I do. But if you don't want to, that's all right too. [He reaches out to find Kohan's hand, giving it a squeeze.]

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It's... not that.

[ ... ]

Not, entirely that. I'm just... not sure how much I'm comfortable with... [ boning another dude

And then the dam breaks. ]

I mean, I've thought about it. [ A lot. ] But for some reason, it always just... seems weird. I wish I knew how to explain it, but I haven't really figured it out, myself. There's just something that doesn't feel like... it should, I guess. I'm not really sure how I'm supposed to feel about it, but... this seems like it's not it.

[distressedude]

[Ion listens, nodding as Kohan speaks. But before he answers, the first thing he's going to do is carefully climb off of Kohan and seat himself next to him... and then keeping his knees pulled up against his chest, because that's just awkward otherwise.]

...well. I asked you before, when we first got together, if you were attracted to me. I didn't push you for an answer then, and I suppose at the time it didn't matter, but...

[Even though he feels like the answer should be obvious, when he gets right down to it, it's not. And in the back of his mind, he already has an idea of what could be the problem. Though he's kind of hoping he's wrong.]

...are you?

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I... think so. [ At least that's the answer he's come to peace with.

Also kind of shifting his legs to cut down on the awkward on this side too. ]

I mean, when I think about you, I... am pretty sure I'm attracted to you. Just... when I try to imagine us... yeah... I can't, somehow. Not really.

[distressedude]

[...]

[It's actually surprising him how difficult this question is to ask while trying to keep his voice and expression neutral.]

...do you think you would have this same problem if I was a girl?

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Huh?

[ The question genuinely catches him by surprise, and it takes him several seconds to respond if only because he's turning the sounds over in his head and making sure he understood them right. ]

I... really have no idea. I don't think I've ever thought about it. ... Why?

[distressedude]

[Never even thought about it... that may not answer the question, but it does give Ion a bit of relief.]

I'm not exactly a very masculine boy. I've been mistaken for a girl more times than I can count. And... it's not as though you've ever seen me without clothes on before. What if you're just attracted to me because of that?

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... Well, there was the hot springs.

[ But it's something he's turning over in his head now. He thought he'd come to terms with liking a boy, since that had caused him plenty of agony, but... did he actually think of Ion as a girl? At least by appearance? It seemed... too weird a thought, but it's not like there hadn't been stranger in his time here. ]

[distressedude]

...and what did you think when you saw me there?

[You know. When they were still awkward with each other and Ion was crippled and Kohan thought he was sitting next to him naked in the bath.]

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... I think I was too busy worrying about my attraction to you being another experiment to think too much about it at the time.

[distressedude]

Ah, right, that was during an experiment, wasn't it...

[Which means there's no way to know whether Kohan felt attracted to him at the time or not.]

...so maybe we should try recreating that? We don't need to do anything, but... maybe it would help for you to see?

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... [ And Kohan shifts again because okay the thought of Ion undressing is not helping that problem. ]

I think if we're going to do that, we really need to go somewhere else.

[distressedude]

I'm okay with it if you are. We just need to find somewhere no one can walk in on us...

[Not that he's at all distrustful of Ven, but the thought of being overheard or interrupted is an unpleasant one.]

Perhaps an empty room in one of the community buildings?

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[ Seriously, Ion? Seriously?

...

Okay that's not actually that bad of an idea c o n s i d e r i n g . . . ]

Yeah, I guess that does work.

[distressedude]

Then it's settled.

[Aaand with that he gets up, thankful upon standing that his choice of clothing tends to be on the loose and flowy-side these days. Though given the conversation, Kohan is free to recognize that they are, in fact, girly.]

[He reaches out a hand towards Kohan with a smile.] Shall we?

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[ He's sort of noticing that, but more so he's noticing that it's not giving Ion very much embarrassment. Whereas when Kohan stands, those Square Enix-inspired pants aren't very forgiving.

Welp, with any luck no one will be around at all. Whatsoever. Period.

He takes Ion's hand and stand up. ]

Sure.

[ ohgodhisbonerissoobviousrightnow ]

[distressedude]

[No, they certainly aren't very forgiving, though it's something Ion can appreciate. Clearly there's no question as to whether Ion is attracted to Kohan -- he looks up at Kohan at first, then looks down, blushes, and turns on his heel to go.]

There... shouldn't be too many people out right now, so we'll be all right. The community building is just across the road, after all.

[AND OFF THEY GO.]

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[ Yeah okay Ion that didn't help. Now he's got a bigger problem.

BUT OFF THEY GO quickly and quietly hopefully. And without incident please? ]

[distressedude]

[Yes, they make it without incident! And it just so happens that CH4 has tons of empty rooms, fully furnished and everything for them to make use of.]

[And of course, once they find a room, Ion makes sure to lock the door behind them. But even though it was his suggestion to come here, now that they're actually here, he can't help but start to feel nervous.]

...so, should we find the bedroom then?

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[ Oh geeze why are they here why are they doing this are they actually gonna-- ]

Yeah. I mean... probably, yeah. If we're going to...

[distressedude]

[He takes a steading breath before grabbing Kohan by the hand again, slowly leading him back to the bedroom, again closing the door behind them. Just as he thought, the room was already furnished with pillows and blankets and fresh sheets and--]

[It was starting to get just a little overwhelming. Ion was sure that his body wanted to do this and something in the back of his mind is telling him that they need to at least try and figure out Kohan's problem. They didn't need to do anything tonight, but if it did turn out that Kohan wasn't attracted to Ion that way... well, they'd have to figure something out for the future.]

[He gives Kohan's hands a gentle squeeze, looking up at him again for a few moments before looking down -- and then just blushing even more.]

So... how should we do this?

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... Not sure.

[ Ion do you really think he has an idea how this goes.

Just being in the bedroom is making his heart beat faster and blood rush to his face, though. ]

You said earlier... something about doing what we did in the hot springs?